I sometimes spend time in the past
in my mind
feeling again the pain it hurts
the embarrassment i still feel it
thinking again what i should have said i hate you
thinking again what i could have done with my fist
and i wish you the shattered visions of the greatest curse i can give
i replay the days after i pummel you
in alternate universes
i ridicule you you are worthless
i strike you down you are ugly
i see you falling in muddy waters i am delighted
i see you losing all your friends we hate you
i see you despair and withdraw like i do
i hate you with all the darkness in my heart i hate you
or is that me?
